Trusting Myself

I have gone through more than I could ever had imagined in the past year... It has been really like living in an ongoing nightmare that never seemed to end. Looking at my life from the outside, everyone thought it was perfect and wished to have it... My life was full of lies, deceit, false hope, and honestly it was all fake... The worst part of  it all is I knew this the entire time and did nothing about it... Basically it comes down to that I didn't want to deal with reality. If I just lived in my little bubble nothing could hurt me and I wouldn't feel anything and more importantly I wouldn't have to deal with myself! I lived this way for more years than I would like to admit... I hit rock bottom and was finally forced to deal with all the pain, hurt, and most of all my own demons... It's an ongoing struggle and fight but I can at least say I am dealing. I know for myself unless I am 1000% percent honest with myself I will not win this battle. It's time to trust myself and do what I know is best for me and I am the only one who holds the answers.